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Last night, sucked. I couldn't sleep. I was thinking about everything :| I finally went to sleep at like 3 am, and I just woke up now, but I'm still exhausted. I really don't get why this is all hitting me now, and making this such a problem. Atleast I see you tomorrow, maybe we'll talk, that'd be pretty sweet. I mean, hopefully we do, or that's pretty messed up. I kinda wish everyting goes back to normal, and we start talking how we did before this all happehned. You make me really happy. Which not many people do recently, and now you're not here it really sucks that I'm usually in a bad mood except for when I'm around you. Even though you probably won't read this. I miss you. I fucked up, actually, both of us did, and I just don't know how I should feel any more. :\ It's memorial day. I'm going swimming today(: That should get my mind off some things. I'll write again tonight. <3

edit: 7:55pm. SOOO, today was fun :D! Except for the fact that my dad took my cellphone away for 6 hours, and shut the router off >:O But, anyways I went swimming ! And saw my family who I haven't seen in a while. It was fun, it made me realize how much I love them [: It was actually so funny, my cousin James is so stupid, I guess he was failing math or something? So the teacher was making him go to a class so he'd get better at whatever he was learning, and he didnt go, so he got called down to the dean. As the deans talking to him, he just walks out of the deans office. Who does that?! ahahhaaha. Whatever, as for you, I think you should start talking to me more, and everything should go back to normal. HAHAHAHA. That was a REALLLLY good joke, but I mean, how can you continuously flirt with me, and be like ' You're amazing ' and not care, obviously theres something wrong, or you think things will be the same. If this whole thing were to happen again, I think it'd be completly different, I'm losing sleep over you, and I can't live like this. I'll have to wait and see, It's all I can do, but a text from you every now and then would be pleasing. YAY. I'm talking to you now [: My step-dad is yelling at me because my rooms not clean, LOL I CLEAN EVERY DAY OF MY FUCKING LIFE. LIKE REALLLY? I HATE YOU SO MUCH. You don't even know. I guess I'm going to clean. Maybe I'll make another edit later? BYE <3


P.S. Christian Douglas Daniel DiStasi is my favorite person in the world, even though he won't learn My Heroine on guitar unless I take my shirt off. LOLOLOLOL.